Always Be There For You

OMG!!

2011-10-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

It has be so long since the last time i blog.... a lot of things have changed and i'm in NS still but I don't like to be there as things that I don't to face and the people in there... not saying that they are bad.. just that they are not really in my world and things like that... at here i tell you that i'm a very self-centered person in NS... so pls do not have any sharing with me and is not like i don't go out with you all.. is i really see my mood on that day.. and sorry to those for te mistakes that i had made... from today onwards, i will not speck a single word of the thing and if anything would to go wrong, i will take the blame and up to you if you wanna do anything.. i will not speck a word or refuse anything that you wanna say about me or do anything about me...

At Here I Am Very Sorry..

ready...

2011-03-08T19:18:00.002+08:00

I think i'm ready for NS... but i'm not ready to not able to see your face, the expressions that is on your face... dunno when can i see you again after yesterday... wanted you to come and see me off to the police training centre at Old Choa Chu Kang road there... but i'm afraid that once i see u there, i can't take it and feel like staying... although still in singapore but, i really dunno when to see you again... although i had already asked few of them to look after you, but still i wanna be the one beside you... i think these few days i... dunno wat to do... can i just go out with you once more... i really want the time to turn back so i can take care of you again... help you, eat with you, talk about wat happened today, when u feel cold i'll lend u my jacket, when u want to eat something i'll buy and share with you, and more i wish that i can have more time to accompany you... i can't say everything in facebook and even here... all i want is to see your smiling face again...

Long Time...

2011-02-12T19:17:00.002+08:00

So long never post liao now come back post because TAY LI TING said that this page is like wasted... -.-lll

nvm...

The photo up there is for this coming tuseday graduation day...

can't wait for that day man...

anyway these days have started to have problem...

coz teacher get to know something and also there is other people too...

believe it or not the chinese thingy is sometime very "chun"...

nvm see how it goes...

As Time never lies...

It will prove who is the one...

Singapore Universal Studio

2010-11-07T23:16:00.003+08:00

Today went to SUS with joanne (shall address her this for today give her face.. heehee) and Lynette. First thing joanne told me is I grown fat T.T

There was a lot of ride is not ready yet so unable to have a chance to enjoy the roller coaster.... :(

At there, we ate before we went out to vivo to buy movie tickets and walked around the mail....

The movie was like -.-lll hahahaa.... but still okay la.

Then went for dinner and also we brought cake for her.... the cake is so nice hope you like it =)

Going to sleep soon....

(The pics will be in facebook :P)

Wow....

2010-09-15T09:42:00.002+08:00

There is a lot of things i want to say.... but there is a lot of things i can't say at here....

There is a lot of thing in my mind and all these things, i only want to tell you and let you know....

I dunno what to do.... can you tell me?

Yesterday and today....

2010-07-30T18:08:00.004+08:00

This is what I had ate for yesterday's dinner....

Today lesson like so boring and I wish I can get out of this class as soon as possible....

well althrough lesson are bored, I got an idea of what to give her on her birthday....

now then I need to find a way to give to her as alway arr no time to meet me....

Nurses' Day Celebration....

2010-07-24T18:16:00.002+08:00

Today went back to school for Nurses' Day Celebration....

The performents are so-so only lei but only for the second half of the performents is awesome man....

Teachers performed so well and same goes to some of the students who performed the second half....

I think very fast I'll be out of ITE SiMei le as this year is my last year....

hope that the rest o my life I will meet some better pupils....

well what to say my mind, doesn't think of her every now and then....

you see, it fill up with another person and I think if wasn't that person, I think there is a lot of things I would have given up on.... the person now already is one of my most important person in my life le.... that person change my character into a better one and I kinda like it as this is the character I should have long ago.... hmm.... but please some of you don't pin point at anyone or think you are the one cause I may be close with you but still you are not the one....

No one knows the person is who as I never tell anyone and I think in my whole life I would tell anyone only to the person.... but I don't know should I tell....

let's see how it goes....

what a day for me man.... heehee....

Phew....

2010-07-23T20:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday and today is my BCLS.... it was tested right away after we practiced a few times....

It was easy for yesterday but for today the things that we need to do and focus on are many....

through I think I can do better for today but at least one tried and pass with good comments....

Althrough i'm happy but still worried for someone but the person also passed at the end of the day....(like that type, the person won't know who i'm saying.... heehee....) But don't know why out of sudden, I care for the person a lot.... I think not just a lot, is much more than "a lot" lei.... aiyo....

Anyway today quite happy and tomorrow will be Nursing Day Celebration.... from 9 -12plus....

Sigh been so busy til no time to go out or even go see my young cousins....

Miss them a lot too T.T

Need to see this sunday have time to go see them or not....

Hope that I'll have the time....

Tired....

2010-07-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

Today just done my NAFA test and I know that I did badly as I used to be....

I think I know what I should do le.... Just follow my heart....

I used to be like whatever I think I'll just do but now I've lost it....

Now I going to try my best to be the Yong Shen that everyone used to know....

I gonna be a better man.

Oncology....

2010-07-17T23:35:00.004+08:00

This has been like forever since i join nursing that I wanted to study Onology....

It like a dream to me when I was in sec 1.... it has been so long.... fianlly I got into Oncology!!!!

When the day I entered the class, I was so happy as I be able to fulfill my dream....

About this, I think only a few people know the real reason why I want to study Onoclogy....

I wish you also know.... not just I'm the one who trying to know you more but, I want you know more about me.... well I think I won't have the chance to let you know more about me since I have found out the answer why you don't like me....

The answer is that I don't have the right to love you....

So I think this is it for me....

I found this song is nice but I won't put here. If you want to listen to this song, find it. This song will be the one for our time that we had spent together althrough we are not a pair but, I really know that those times were my best moment of life and I'll never forget who is the one that I love most....

The song is "Making Love Out Of Nothing At All"

Things are happening....

2010-06-28T17:03:00.002+08:00

Just last thursday, my grandfather admited to TTSH.. That time he admited is at mid-night so the nurse ask my father and brother to go home first and visit him the next day.. When i go visit him, he just went for U/S but my father don't know what scan is it about.. when he came back the doctor came to talk to us and he said that my grandfather has to be put on DIL and if there's a need to, they will send him to HD or even ICU.... before he was admited, i was taking care of him and seeing him slowly day by day getting worst by not eating for two day.... at the mean while i also got sick as mid-night have to wake up to check on him and not having enough rest even at daylight because my both aunt keep calling so i can't get to sleep.... that days i not eating well too is like only have on meal per day which is so abnormal for me whereby i normally have at least two meal per day.... wednesday i have to take some time to visit him and ask the nurse for his few days condition if not my father sometime don't understand and my aunt's husband will act like he knows everything.... come on man i have to get strong enough to cope my studies and house matter of course including my grandfather....

I don't want to have another regret....

Sick & Worries....

2010-06-22T21:44:00.003+08:00

These few days never get a good sleep as my grandfather is not well.... my whole family was so worried and he has to go for Operation but he doesn't want.... Both my aunt came down to see him and tell him go for Operation.... Today when he speak, i heard the different when he is still well.... I'm getting worried lei.... now i not feel well as these few days have to keep waking up to check on him.... sigh now i can't get sick coz if i sick, I can't focus on taking care of him.... i'm so tired and my heart is like slowly going to stop as no one i can talk to.... I don't want to have another regret in my life.... feel like i had already run out of tears as i had cried a lot for my very first regret....

HAPPY

2010-06-16T17:08:00.002+08:00

Today IS one of my HAPPIEST day of my LIFE!!!!

Friday And Saturday....

2010-05-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

On friday, I went to watch a school concert whereby i had long hope to go again.... but this time round, the concert is very good but I just felt that if she is there i surely will enjoy even more.... but already the choice that she made, I'm already know and understand....

Saturday, at the morning I've online in MSN, xin yun asked me about the concert that I posted in facebook.... I told her about the concert that I went to watch and she thought that is the "Show Luo" concert ticket.... then I asked her if she really want to watch, then I'll try my luck to see is there anymore ticket for the concert.... in the end, I'm so lucky because it left only three ticket at the price of $178 but, when i brought the ticket need to add another $3 so it became $181.... then we meeting at night to go watch Luo Zhi Xiang's concert.... before i go home, i went to somerset to donate blood so i met elieen there and she bring me to the place to donate blood.... the thing take around 30mins?? but the taking of blood just took me less than 10mins.... after donating, i went back home to take a quick bath and prepare my thing to go mid-night work too after the concert.... then when we met at the stadium, we chat a lot of different things and I even said that Luo Zhi Xiang might even walk to our side then she said today she is not pretty.... but from my point of view, you are pretty okay.... since the first time i met you in school u are actually a pretty girl liao.... this is a compliment to you.... heehee.... when the concert ends, we went to the back of the stadium to see Luo Zhi Xiang off.... then when we walk to the MRT, she asked me how about Me & Her.... I told her what happen these few weeks then I felt that I'm so lost but there is only two things I know is, first, my studies, second, if there a girl who really treat me nice, I will also not let her down.... but not just anyone i could accept as I know this matter a lot to me as I'm not just think about what I want now but also in the future.... I have more to say but the words inside me, I don't know who would be so patiently to listen to me because I know not many people have that kind of patient....

Words in my heart....

2010-05-18T21:59:00.001+08:00

Want to find true love, is very difficult as need the girl to understand and really loves me....there are different people in this world, to find the right one is already so difficult and it goes the same for the good one....

this time round I may never grab the precious chance that once infront of me, I had improved whereby I will never let the girl sad, cry or disappointed....

I'll do my very best or even excert my limits to treat her well....

hereby I vow that I will never let her down....

this is just the words that I want to express out....

I had understanded most people cannot....

So....

2010-05-10T23:39:00.003+08:00

So you had make your choice....
If this is what you choice, all I'm able to do is just respect your decision....
I will wish you....
I know this day would come when the moment I confirm that I love you....
I may had already know but still I mentally not prepare....
I have nothing to say because my heart is really break....
This crack I know that not just anyone or anything can fix it....
Now I really know what is blank because this is what I've gone through today....

I'm Lost....

2010-04-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

Attachment went to the same ward for the third time.... I think that most likely when I pass out, i'll go to this ward to work....

At the same time, i'm so lost as i don't know what should I do because I know deep down in me, I can 100% tell you that you are and the only one I can give my 100% to you.... you used to tell me there is other better girl out there but I know no one can replace you in my heart even I know the chances that you will accept is as low as 0.1% but still no matter what even I had a chance to choose between you and a girl who is better than you, I 100% will choose you....

i'm so tired of asking.... I don't wanna to be the only one who is keep making the step.... is tiring.... am I going to wait for your step or I should be keep making the step to get closer to you....

Tired....

2010-04-26T10:00:00.001+08:00

I don't know why I feel so tired....

feel like just want to go have a drink....

Reason....

2010-04-09T15:57:00.002+08:00

There is friends telling me that that girl maybe just don't want to come out and give me any reason that sound truth.... but I think that she never lie to me.... because I know her for nearly six years and I know that she won't try to hurt me....

trust is an important between two person and since I choose to love her, no matter what i will give her my 100% faith, trust, love, hope....

this i had said many times but still you must remember that, no matter what happens, I be there for you and just for you....

Birthday....

2010-04-09T11:43:00.002+08:00

Today suppose to be happy day for me as this year i'm 18....

when i was young, I always wish that i can spent this brithday with someone that I'm in love with....

but this morning woke up at 5.33am, i felt that today have something not right....

in the end, it really came true.... people said that sometime don't put your hope too high because when disappoint comes, it really doesn't feel good at all....

this is the ever first time in my life and is the greatest disappointment of the day....

I'm not blaming anyone.... is just that I really looking forward of today....

Make my day....

2010-04-08T16:35:00.003+08:00

Thought that she will forgot my birthday but in the end she remember!!!!
I'm so happy now today is my day and it will be tomorrow too!!!!
Don't know what to say but this two days will be my happiest time in my life!!!!

Back....

2010-04-08T09:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday at 11.15am, reaches singapore airport.... I was very happy that I finally came back and maybe can get to see her but never.... this is the thing that never make my day.... I know that she would not come but deep down in my heart still wish, still hope and still want to see her there.... In these 14days, everyday or should I say every second my mind was filled with her only.... other things can't get into my mind.... thought that she may remember some thing on this friday but it seems that she did not remember this friday event.... actually i don't know what to write now.... just feel like sigh....

Last Five Days....

2010-03-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

Left only less than five days to my flight to cambodia....

I everyday and almost every second was thinking will you come on that day to see me off....

Although I had already knew that you most likely not coming as you have work.... Sigh....

Yesterday teacher told us that we will check in at 4am so i only can talk to friends or wait til

3.55am but, no matter what i'll still keep looking back hope that I'm able to see you....

I will be at Terminal 1, flight no. 3K599(Jetstar).... will be back at 7 April, 11.30am, flight no. 3K594(Jetstar)....

Picture: these are my nursing friends who are going with me....

What the....

2010-03-14T18:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to the briefing for the trip....

they said be there at 3am then check in but i don't know they will check in at 4am....

they said if can go there at 24th of march at 11pm then rest at there....

i think maybe and most likely i will go there lor.... but of coz before i go, I want to see you....

I'll try to walk the last, check in the last and the last person who will be keep looking back....

oh man....

2010-03-13T11:01:00.002+08:00

I feel like this is taking forever man....

I wish that time can pass faster so that can meet you...

No matter what, I'll wait.... for these years, I had did wrong things but I mean no harm....

just trying to prove that my eyes, my mind, my heart only have you....

there is no one else can be fit in....

14 days....

2010-03-11T11:47:00.004+08:00

today woke up at 9am....

really nothing to do man....

I found out that i really like bowling....

it is so fun.... wanna play agian before i leave....

Phew....

2010-03-09T18:58:00.003+08:00

Finally finish my 2.1 schooling le....

I think am quite happy althought i'm now in diffierent CP group....

I had decided to treat other even better than before....

There is a song change my mind....

is not the matter if anyone reply you....

what matter is you can let the others around you to smile....

this is a guy should do and same goes to everyone in the world....

even the others treat you badly, still you must treat the person good....

Going to depart.... left 16 days.... to my chance and share my smile....

17 days....

2010-03-08T17:40:00.002+08:00

Wanted to call you but scared that i would disturb you so I did not call....

Left 17 days to go & today is my exam, tomorrow will be the last paper of the term....

hmm....

2010-03-07T16:36:00.003+08:00

Very tired and my mood now is so-so....

still have another 18 days to departure

I really miss you.... wanna see you even just for one second....

Ear piece....

2010-03-06T15:51:00.007+08:00

Yesterday my ear piece spoiled so i went to compass point to get a new one but i

brought a head phone which i see it as blue and I love blue so i brought it....

I'm very simple one as long things are blue and things i need, i will love it....

At night, I called my secondary school friend who is my heart chater....

i found that when come chit-chat, this person is the one i will tell everything....

we shared a lot of things although this person keep forgetting my things but still,

I think is very hard to find a person who you can talk to and trust....

And i left 19days to departure....

Leaving....

2010-03-04T19:46:00.002+08:00

Still got another 20days to go after today.... will be going oversea to help people....

this is a good thing to do.... today i asked you, on that day of departure, i wish that you can come and see me off....

but i know that you have work to do and will be very tired.... i still wish that you can see me off and when i come back, wish that the first person i get to see.... is you....

25 march 2010, Terminal 1, 6am flight.... 4am i need to be there but i will be there 3.30am....

I really wish that you will come....

Better....

2010-02-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

To treat myself better and dun just blind fold myself by doing things tat are not worth to.

If other ppl think that i'm just giving excuses, so be it as long i noe what is better for me.

althrough now is not the time for me but, trust me watever i say, i will fulfil it and never lie to the person that is important to me....

happy..

2010-01-24T11:31:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is first class test....

hope that i still can remember the things i had learnt these few weeks....

now goin to study then go meet my aunt to go buy new clothing for chinese new year....

long time never see my young cousin le....

this week i'm happy.... this never really happened in my life until i know that i want to be close with you.... i think no matter what i'll be good just for you....

笨蛋....

2010-01-16T12:22:00.003+08:00

笨蛋.... 笨蛋.... 笨蛋....

大笨蛋!!!!

如果....

2009-12-16T21:09:00.003+08:00

如果你说好或点个头....

事情就可能就不一样了....

我不要什么只是要看你....

只要能看着你, 看见你, 要我付出多少都无所谓....

我只想看见和记得你的笑容而你的美丽....

Moved....

2009-12-11T19:58:00.003+08:00

I just moved my house two weeks ago....

I really not happy that i moved to seng kang but no choice....

Ask ppl out like will die lei....

keep asking scared that will disturb the person....

I.... just wanna go out.... with.... sigh....

Is it really that difficult????

My Best....

2009-11-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

I may not be the person that is good....

But I'll do my best to be a better man....

No matter what I said, believe me....

I will always be there just for you....

One and the Only One....

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!

2009-11-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

Don't ask me why coz i'm very to be guess.... not about the ward....
HAPPY HAPPY :)

Handsome????

2009-10-31T19:51:00.003+08:00

Is it handsome means everything????
Is it handsome means that person is a good person????
Is it handsome is the only thing that guys need????
Is it handsome is the only thing that girls look at????

If people ask me if there is two choices, Handsome & Good Character....
Which one would you choose????
I think I will choose Good Character than Handsome....
I think if without Good Character, I think this world doesn't have anything that is worth for me to own it....

I think forever, I'll remember that my personal character is been taught by my secondary school, Yishun Town & my Teachers.
And, because of one person then I started to felt that I need to CHANGE.... she is the one, the only one that don't need to tell me anything and I will know what thing need to do and to be done....

If I really did not met you, I think I may be a person that everyone hates....

My Heart....

2009-10-17T11:01:00.003+08:00

I yesterday night had cleared the misunderstanding.... Now I feel that I'm so stupid why that time i dun ask and just think that it is like this.... But now, I just need you to know i really love you from the deepest of my heart.... My heart beat bacause of you, I study hard for you, I work hard for you.... I just need you to know that all along in my eyes and my heart only have you.... I love you....

I that time said that i like a girl but i know that time i wasn't thinking correct coz i that time know that my heart still belongs to who.... i'm sorry that make this thing like a joke.... Sorry

at the other posting, i say a girl asked me a question but the person is my childhood friend so pls the others dun think that i'm talking about the person that you think....

Friends?

2009-10-09T14:38:00.003+08:00

these two days felt v.bored and moody.... today not going to write much

think that when come to know friends i'm good but when come to another point there is one matter i think my whole life won't be good....

Present....

2009-10-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

I brought the first birthday present for my ah yi.... it cost $476 and was shared among my brothers....

Went to look around at Northpoint with cheryl for around three hours then finally chose two best one....

then after we walked and looked around le then we go eat japanese food at the third floor of northpoint.... then we walk around coz cheryl wan to buy something....(dunno can say who or not so for now i'm not saying) we went to CWP walked around too but the thing that she wan is out of stock so next time will go out to find again....

Back to Northpoint, i meet my brother, he said one of my brother hv not much cash le so my brother and I went around again to see....

then i tell him to buy the one that i acturlly think tat my ah yi will like so we brought tat....

this sat is goin to my grandma house.... then tat time will be giving cousin sisters present and my ah yi....

Finally!!!!

2009-09-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

Finally I've cleared the problem inside me....

I now have the "answer" to the question....

Yes.... I like her....

Even I knew that the chances that she will accept me is very slim but I won't change my mind once I know I won't regret....

Words That Hurts Me....

2009-09-25T11:39:00.002+08:00

Words.... sometimes it hurt people feelings....

Doesn't mean that what you seen is the truth....

Doesn't mean a person did not explain why that's mean he has no reason....

Doesn't mean that you tell other people and the person don't know what is going on....

Doesn't mean person like you and the person can take the words that you said....

Words that hurts me.... it really hurts....

A Question....

2009-09-19T17:52:00.002+08:00

Today, I suddenlly remember that a girl acturlly asked me. "Yong, do you still like her?" she asked.

When she ask this question, I acturlly have an answer. But, the answer suddenlly went with a no "answer". I don't know what to answer when I wanted to say.

"Can I don't give you the answer now?" I replied.

On the way home, I was thinking what will be answer if I just tell her without thinking.

Until now, I still can't find the answer to this question. In MSN, I wrote my personal message that "Memories make me fear of only one thing". The thing that fear me, won't disapear until the right person tell me an answer that would make this fear to be gone.

But I think this person really must know me then can give me that answer.

(P.S. I will work hard to reach my goal just watch beside me....)

Dotz....

2009-09-18T20:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went back to school to do some recording of cca things.... after go to TM to buy nursing watch then dinner and watch movie.... the movie is....hmm....dotz.... no comment....

(comment anything like be bad sia)

then today nothing to do, watch show til 6pm.... good but sian la stay at home....

My First Video....

2009-09-16T19:53:00.007+08:00

This video, I had spent some time to work on it....

Today....

2009-09-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

Morning 8:30am woke up without my alarm ringing.... 9am went for a mid-distant run.... start from my BLK, around Yishun, ran around khatib then ran back home.... wanted to run at sembawang too but, too tired and really did not run long distant for quite some time....

now resting and my leg is very damn pain T.T feel like cutting off my leg.... sigh.... i think these two day need a good rest in order to recover from pain.... kinda miss my secondary school life.... not like now.... but everyone will go through this stages so I remember the days I spent in my secondary school.... miss my classmates, teachers and schoolmates....

My holiday have started, so anyone wan to find me, can just call me.... i think most of the time i'm free to meet.... no matter at where.... :)

Examination....

2009-09-06T11:57:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my exam same goes to my juniors in YTSS.... on the morning will go there to cheer for them & also bought some sweet for them....

now reading CN notes for tomorrow exam.... which is on the afternoon, 1pm....
then the day after tomorrow is BS exam.... i should be able to do well in the exam....

All I wish is that those who I know, to be happy.... Anything happened to you,
I'll Always Be There For You.... :)

Jia You for tomorrow Exam!!!! Juniors Too!!!! :)

Holidays plan....

2009-09-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

At this coming holidays, I going to run from my BLK to sembawang then back to yishun, khatib then end at my BLK on every monday morning or afternoon ba.... if anyone wan to join me just tell me....

long time did not run long distant liao dunno still can do this or not.... I think the last time i ran the long distant is last year....

I think for me I should take a run a short one on this sunday before i can do the long one....

Hope....

2009-08-29T17:38:00.002+08:00

When i suddenlly felt that there is no hope for me, but it actually appear infront me....
i have to become a better person just like i used to sing infront of my friends.... "To be a better man...."
even i have the thought that i should join other course but i think this is the path i have to take in order to reach my goal....
is not that people talk about something that is past will make me unhappy, is that I afraid you will feel unhappy....
I don't mind people laugh at me as long you are not hurt, i am willing to take all the laugher from the others....
In people eyes, i maybe not a person that everyone wish to but, I will do what i can to let the people around to be happy when i'm with them....

My Very First Chinese Post

2009-08-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

今天我发觉, 我有点太高攀我自己了.... 因为我近期来我在想,我是否选择不对的路....
我想我不因该在这种时间想这种事情....可是这件事一直都在我的思想中旋转....
去休息了我....

Sigh

2009-08-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

Sigh is this wat i wan wif my life????
I feel like.... I dunno wat to say.... Sigh.... i seriously dunno wat should i do....
why i always like tat!!!! just played soccer wif friends thought hv fun but i dun really smlie from my heart....
dunno since when hv this kind feeling....
stop for 10min to think wat to type....
this is v.first i'm like tat.... is totally not like me.... i felt like this whole world everyone hated me....
Can i really get over wif this feeling???? i really dunno.... i dunno who i can turn to or talk to....
felt like no one really understand wat i'm saying.... i feeling really very damn down.... feel like.... Sigh....

2009-08-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

On sat went to my sec sch class outing.... on tat day almost all the guys went to hv a swim but i did not as i dun wan then we played few ball games then they go bath.... after tat we went for dinner then come back to yishun safra to play pool.... is on the eve of national day so as i thought i just messaged her.... even through just a message, i still feel v.happy!!!! while replying, was playing wif friend so i just finished the game as fast as i can so it only took 1min to finish then i continue to reply her.... heehee XD.... reach home around 1.30am so went to bath first before sleep....

tomorrow going to sch liao n wedday hving test, hv to do better this time round.... JIA YOU!!!!>.<

Today update....

2009-08-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

Tonight just find the matter clearly liao so just take it as like this liao lor....
sigh wat a long day for me.... gtg sleep liao tomorrow still hv 10hrs of schooling

Thursday,friday,yesterday & today....

2009-08-02T11:00:00.000+08:00

On thursday, I went to told teacher tat i dun wan to be the class treasurer anymore as a lot of things i done for the class is like i of coz hv to do.... then if hv anything goes wrong all blame will be push on to my shoulder.... then my teacher told not to quit now n asked me to think about it first n maybe go talk to idra can she become the main treasurer but i did not tell her wat happen....

Friday, after the lesson teacher ask me again still wan to quit? then i said nvm liao i just forget wat happen n life goes on.... i went to youth out event with my sec friends.... while walkin to the place they told me something tat they all noe it for a few weeks already.... it about some thing tat related to both friends.... when i noe it, it is totally crap and impossible to be happen.... already at thursday, i'm already angry about something then now give me this thing.... not saying tat this matter is bad but it happened tat isi dunno wat to do.... i'm in total loss now....i really dunno wat to do T.T i feel like cry now sia.... i seriously dunno wat to do now....

Yesterday, my test on NGT.... i miss two small part of the steps n teacher said tat i did v.well.... then went back home feeling v.tired as yesterday slept for only three hours n my eyes is like one big one small.... today while the test i still thinking wat to do wif the matter tat related to the thing i just got to noe yesterday....

Today going to wai po's house to visit her by myself.... today morning all in my mind is about the matter.... sigh.... i really loss my way now.... why this kind of thing happened on me when i thought tat it will never happen to me.... i'm not saying tat the person do wrong is tat y she go tell him when she should noe tat he will tell the others n mad at me.... if she wan to say then should hv tell me n only me but y sia go tell him then all my friends noe then i'm the last one to noe....
(to the girl: if u read this pls just message me or call me.... coz i reall wan to noe is true or not....)

My secondary friends

2009-07-18T10:31:00.004+08:00

Everyone, my friends have an event tat is at Eunos. i noe is far as all of us lived in north side but i think long time we did not go out liao so maybe is a good time to meet each other again. the event will start at 7.30 til 10pm can reach there later or even leave earily. have to wear white or red for the top, as for the pant u want to wear jean or short is okay. there is free flow of drink n food(chips and popcorn) for just $4 ticket fee. if u wan to come just message me, call me or MSN me. i'll be 24/7

Swimming....

2009-07-12T13:05:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i went to swimming with my friends.... went to chinese garden there.... when i swim, i thought tat it may calm me down for bit but i think it doesn't turn out in a good result.... well anyway next sat i'm goin to swim again.... maybe the rest of the sat.... find someone to go with me?? see hw it goes first....

Picnic....

2009-07-01T07:59:00.009+08:00

Yesterday went to picnic althrough is not so good but i think is good la even my mouth say is not good as the very least the event is happening....

yesterday talked with one of my secondary sch friend and the person hv some problem in the BGR.... i told the person tat if really cant con't liao then just tell the person but scared the person cant take it n i said "ya".... then the person said see hw it goes first....

after the long talk matthew n his gf came with the sandwitches.... it is v.good the sandwitch.... then the four of them came back from the playgound....then wan ting n dorothy went to toilet to take a bath.... then pui man n monica went to fatch Muhaimin from bus stop.... then matthew say he is goin to downtown east to see can book a pit for us or not and on the way he will buy some drink.... the rest of us stay at there chat-chat then cant stay there for long we decided to go.... so we tried to finish up watever we can then we pack up.... when walking we saw matthew has finally come back from downtown east.... after tat he went back or went out with the gf....then we went to downtown east's mac to hv a sit n buy some ice cream to eat.... then we went to take our own bus to go home.... when i took 969, i sleep in the bus after tat i feel much better liao....

(P.S. Thanks sia the friend in the phone can even noe i not feeling well when i talk. I'm really happy. thanks :) )

End....

2009-06-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day of posting.... i think i will miss the job and the patients....
today when i go fatch the patient, when i see him, he remind me about my late grandma....
he was in pain like my grandma i almost goin to tear liao....
I feel so heart pain when I saw him.... i really miss my grandma....
I still cant let the past go....
T.T

Tomorrow last day of posting....

2009-06-25T22:39:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day of my CP posting liao.... next week will be my holiday then go back to sch liao....
I sure miss my classmates sia.... is a long time since i last met them....
now just reach home then later go bath as my brother is bathing now....
i hope tomorrow eveything will go smoothly....
going to bath liao.... tomorrow then blog again.... -.-zzzz

Hurt...

2009-06-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

today after work went to play basketball.... then i hurt my arm again now resting think tat this few days not goin out liao.... sigh well gtg play game with my brother liao.... T.T

Today kana blame for nothing....

2009-06-13T19:28:00.002+08:00

today went to hospital to do my make up then four of them did not come then i message teacher to tell him....

after tat he tell me dun need to tell sister coz is their responsibility to call the sister on duty but one of them did not call then sister find one of the us ask her.... then she like.... sigh i dun wan to say liao la.... is not i dun care is really their responsibility to call the ward.... lucky three out of four of them got call the ward at here i say good job n thanks but for tat one person u should noe wat to say about urself.....

i really need to think about it if next time i am the leader again.... is so sian to be a leader....

Reply

To Cherly:dotz sia saddenly come to my blog and write the repeat for so many time.... lame! hahaaaaaa!!!!XD

Let the talk end here ok?

2009-06-09T19:31:00.003+08:00

I think no use at here talk about this and I think you want to study now right so just let this past and focus on studies first.... I too want to focus on studies first....

The second reply....

2009-06-08T19:15:00.003+08:00

If last time this answer is answered to me, I will say a lot of things that is crap....

but now i won't.... all i can say is if i never try i will never know the result....

so got point or no point i think half of it is up to me

coz i'm the one who said I like you....

I will do whatever i can and i think it worth no matter what....

A reply to you....

2009-06-06T16:27:00.004+08:00

Even you like that say i will still won't give up coz i am serious....
since like tat then i shall use these time to make lots of good memories between us....
I don't mind waiting but i will do something instead of nothing....

My changes for you....

2009-06-01T17:16:00.003+08:00

Some of my friends should know wat is goin on in my life tat i hv make my move n i noe tat is too fast but i just wan to let her noe tat i am serious about this.... i won't do things without thinking....

she noe about my past about the girl.... she noe i love her alot but noe no more n this i hv think for one month.... i noe my answer n the answer is real.... no one is a replacement for anyone.... once i noe i will put my heart on the line but of coz the ball is now on ur court.... wan shoot to goal or to just let the time runs out, is ur choice.... but i will do my best to let u score....

I AM SERIOUS ABOUT THIS!!!!

Today....

2009-05-22T17:57:00.002+08:00

Today wanted to go watch concert one but not going liao beside no one accompany me and not feeling well.... sorry arr mei mei can't go for your performent but i think it surely better than last time although last time is really very good liao :)

just took my temp is 37.9.... gone down a bit liao but still not good yet....

wish tat by tomorrow night will be ok liao if not monday go back to attachment will still feel v.tired....

sigh why i saddenlly have fever.... need to go back on sat to make up liao....

I'm very sick now....

2009-05-22T08:23:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to hospital for my attachment but later on, i feel very sick n headache.... so i ask my teacher can i go home rest or not then he say go take my temp then sign out.... after i took the temp, is 37.7.... then i took taxi go home after tat, the doctor i went to haven come yet so i went home took a rest first then go see him....

at 10.45am, i went down to see doctor then my temp is 38.1.... it went higher.... after i take my medi, i sleep for 2hr 30min then i eat soft diet.... then i took my medi again so on til night....

Today morning i took my temp again, is 39.1....so i called my teacher wat should i do? He said go see the doctor again then i say ok but just now i took my temp again is 38.7 liao so maybe i see this afternoon hw is my temp then i decide wan to go or not.... now still resting T.T

Moody :(

2009-05-12T20:51:00.002+08:00

Today actually still in happy mood but i looked at something n it reminded me something happened n someone told me a lie.... i may noe this person had lie to me time n time.... but i just take as is not n maybe just saddenlly need to change of plan.... but one of the time i saw with my very own eyes n i noe that i got lied by this person....
that day when i found out i wanted to shout out loud n just go home but i just keep it inside me....
is it so diifcult to let people trust me????

Today got to noe tat we r goin back to the hospital to con't our CP....
today is a bad day for me i wish tat this will never happen again....
wish tat someone will appear....

Causeway point

2009-05-11T21:05:00.004+08:00

Today went to causeway point to meet idra they at.. when i reach there, idra's face is already full of cream n strawberry smell hahahaaaaa.....

then dunno y they like save some til i come then they smack on my face.... then also my face also hv the smell.... T.T

then we went to eat at pizzahut to eat our lunch.... after we ate, i went to buy some polo-T.... after tat we walked around the mai until 4.15pm then we go take mrt go home....

when i reach yishun, i went to northpoint to buy a present for my so called "mei mei"....

today mood....hmm.... still the same.... HAPPY!!!!

Happy Mood :)

2009-05-09T13:24:00.005+08:00

sigh our CP hv to stop halfway due to the H1N1.... sigh....

so we hv to go back to school to start our 1.2 studies....

actaully i hv nothing much to say la but quite happy for this week, next week will be like tat and the next next week also will be the same too :)

Something is lost... but i think is better for me....

2009-04-23T21:46:00.004+08:00

on tuesday, i went to hospital for work, i still hv my psp's memory card but after work then i found out tat is not with me nor in my bag....

but i think something lost may gain something tat u will never think of....

i still not sure on something but i noe the past.... i hv to let go.... let bygone be bygone....

now just do wat i need to do.... from today on, a new start for me!!

and this is for someone.. if she read this she will noe wat i am talkin..

i'm TAN YONG SHEN NOT "SHENG" i am a totally different guy from the guy u talking about

tat's all, night hahaha XD

My first day....

2009-04-13T18:30:00.003+08:00

today is the first day of work at SGH.... today we did not go to the ward to help the patient but tomorrow then go to ward.... today when they giving the talk, i wan to sleep sia!!!! really v.boing coz everything is like common things tat even not a nurse should noe....

aiya.... anyway today then i noe i am one of the leader in my group.... sigh.... just ate my dinner now feel so full.... today for me is still quite ok la....tomorrow goin to see my ward liao.... cant say anything about the hospital things so i think i better dun talk much about this liao....

NOW IS RELAX TIME!!!! GAME!!!!

My Birthday....

2009-04-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

today is my birthday (but yesterday they ask me out as early celebrating birthday) all of them are my nursing friends but got one is not la but still i am very happy that they ask me out for early celebration....

ya.... there is still some part missing la but i can't say anything coz got so many friends of mine remember my birthday is on the 09th of April....

thanks for the cake yesterday deborah & of coz the those who go out with me today....

thank you all for letting me have great time....

think not goin to sleep tonight.... maybe waiting for something or the thing tat will never happen....

tat's all for today liao....

My World....

2009-04-05T11:39:00.003+08:00

sigh.... i dunno wat to write at here for today.... wanted to go out with friends today but i dun have the mood to go so i told them i'm not goin with them....

now going to rain already.... like my world will rain forever.... need someone to light up my world.... is that day ever going to happen....

the person who can light up my world....

Reply tag

YongShen Fan Club: i dunno who r u but i noe u r one of my friend.... thanks anyway....

2009-03-28T15:08:00.003+08:00

idra, deborah, amiza, diana, ah nat & I went to sentosa on the thursday....

i just wanted to go there to calm my mind but in the end still can't n i got sunburn on my neck,shoulder, back, chest & legs.... :(

then on friday, i went to my secondary school's speech day til night.... should be happy one but in the end no so happy or even happy....

after the speech day everything then i with my friends went to safra to play pool....

before we go to the pool table there, we but something to eat at the 7eleven

then i went up to check got any space for us or not then the answer is no....

then i tell my friends we have to go play bowling liao....

when we go there, we still have to wait for 5 person then is our turn....

we waited for around 45mins then one of my friend told me there is space for pool liao then we went for pool again....

while we walking there, i asked idra to call me as i am so bored while waiting....

when i spoke to her, i'm not like myself and she also know tat too....

then i say next time then i talk to her again some other time....

we played til nearly 11pm then we left for home....

i wish my life can be more simple n happy....

2009-03-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

these few days i went back to my secondary school to help my D&T teacher and Juniors with their D&T coursework.... they have a whole lot of question for me n was like hell for me to think a way to solve the problem but of course i dun think everything for them some can let their think by themselve i let them think their own....

tuesday also going back to secondary school to help and acutally ask a friend to come help also but in the discussion, i'm so angry coz she she if got the person got go then she will go too but i know that even the person go, she then will say not free or something else.... is not acutally i am mad with her but i am mad with myself....

these few days went there acutally wan to calm down one but after yesterday a message, i am danm sad again....

i wish tat when the speech day re i won't be like this.... and so to the acutal day of the speech day....

those who taged me.... i dun noe y i am like that but dun worry i'm ok :)

Going back to Secondary School....

2009-03-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

on tuesday, i'm going back to my secondary school and help out my junior for their D&T project..... is at 9am....

i have heard from my teacher the progress is quite slow n this end of march hv to pass up the cutting list....

beside this they still doing the ideation.... they need to speed up.... when i go back help them, i must make sure that some of them at least can finish up the ideation if not none of them can pass up the cutting list on time....

i have to jia you!!!!

Wat am i suppose to do????

2009-03-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

today afternoon i went for basketball.... i think my shooting improve a lot but i dun hv the feeling n the mood the play.... for some reason i felt so tired, feel so down and dunno wat to do.... i suppose to be happy with one month holiday but, i just can't be as happy as wat i think before...

now at home, also the same thing.... dunno wat to do....

i think i better go think wat am i suppose to do with my one month holiday....

Exam over & HOLIDAYS START RIGHT AWAY!!!!

2009-03-10T22:05:00.006+08:00

Yay today the nursing 1.1 is over also end of our examination!!!!

from today til april 13, is my holidays!!!! so i can play basketball til like hell!!!!

also at the same time i won't be able to see my classmate for around 4 months time....

this is so sad....

today they take lots of photo in school n four girls bash me up in the photo hahahaaa....

i wonder they got post it anywhere or not....

when reach home is so damn tired like almost knock out on the street.... i think i better go get an early sleep....

Today is the examination for Nursing Studies....

2009-03-08T20:55:00.006+08:00

today is the day where my nursing studies examination start although is just two hours paper but it will decide our future....(of course including biology 1 examination)

before going for my examination, my friends asked me to join them in the morning study at 11am.... so i will go join them but i dun think tat i can study any word into my mind....

yesterday i study for nursing studies but i dun think tat got a lot of it went into my mind but i still believe tat i can pass.... just do the paper with relaxing mood (for me i have to be like that if not i can't do well) & dun think too much....

i think i better get going.... for my morning study with my friends....

I Believe I Can!!!!

These Four Days Very Sad....

2009-03-07T21:26:00.005+08:00

Sigh.... these few days in school can't concentrate in class....

my friends keep asking me why I so sad.... i replied sometime "nothing just no mood" n sometime I did not relpy them....

I, myself also dunno why i so sad.... the whole day i dun even noe what i'm thinking....

on yesterday friday, i went to yishun safra with my secondary school classmate to play pool....

while playing, i suddenly become so angry n they asked me y I like tat.... I replied them nothing again....

i think i will get better these few days.... hope that i will calm down by then....

2009-03-07T18:37:00.001+08:00

"yong shen, i'm feeling damn damn tired for everything i do in your blog. So blanja me starbucks!! i don't care! i want starbucks and a fake moustache from mustaffa centre."

said idra daud..

i miss JN0901C !

2009-03-07T18:05:00.004+08:00

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2009-03-05T05:43:00.004+08:00

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